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                  ❝…❞
                  she stands, still as water ;
                  calm within the ocean’s
                  walls. optics, flared with
                  amber & hazel coating
                  over confusion, loss -
                             sadness.

                ❝do you honestly believe-❞
                 a pause. she licks & bites
                 her lips. brows furrow.

               ❝that just because i have not
                  loved in the extent that you
                  have… that it means i have
                  not loved at all?❞

                  she frowns for a few moments.

                ❝you don’t understand the first
                  thing about me. you’ve never
                  even tried to understand the
                  desire, trust… fondness that
                  graces my heart when i close
                  my eyes & think about you,
                         about us, darling.
                  but you choose to read the
                  fragments of me that prove
                  insignificant. i never voiced
                  that i loved my father..you
                  read that it was him, who i
                  mentioned. family love is
                  not the same, but my point
                              is, marlowe.❞                  

                  fingers loosely wrap around
                  his wrist. she glances down ;
                  eyelashes pointing to the
                  ground, and she weaves her
                  fingers between the gaps of
                  his hand.

                ❝you don’t have to voice denial.
                  you can allow your walls to fade…❞
                  her gaze is calm & fingers still
                  clasp his hand with locked intimacy.

                  ❝& i know, deep down, you want
                   to.. however i also know that, that
                   stubborn little voice is in there, too,
                   telling you to be careful ; to keep
                   trust to a minimum, due to past
                   suffering, loss, angst & agony.❞

                 ❝but i can teach you how to make
                   that side of you dissapear, marlowe.❞

                     ❝and then, you can tell me what
                          i have and have not felt.❞